between jun and mirul :)

Congratulation to Harimau Malaya for the victory over Myanmar  last night..

And the most important part is the very beautiful and wonderful goal from my mirul..

You are super duper awesome, amirulhadi zainal.. :)

I love you damn much ! <3

the second thing is about my matsujun..
i`ve already watch mada minu sekai e pv..
it is a nice song but i don`t really go for it..
i still think (one love, truth, hatenai sora, lotus,right back to you,
monster, subarashiki sekai,be with you, snowflake, 
dear snow, to be free) is better than this..
but, of course, it is still a good song..
and also my ichiban is so handsome in mada minu sekai e..

Your dance is so beautiful as always my junny bunnie..

Owh yeah, your voice has improved a lot..  :)

Aishiteru jun-kun ! As much as always <3

p/s : it`s hard for me to put my junnie and my mirul on the same post. 

I don`t know which one should be my main focus, but as a Malaysian,

 I think the victory of Malaysia against Myanmar is the important news,

so I put the article for my mirul first before my junnie.. 

but, my junnie is still my ichiban :) hahaha~ 

(OMG~ I`M GONNA CRAZY)

happy birthday kazunari ninomiya-san !

Happy birthday to you..

Happy birthday to you..

Happy birthday nino..

Happy Birthday to you..

DoM..( the DS crazier)..

arashi magician =)

happy 28th birthday ninomiya-kun..

i wish you are success in your career and life..

and i hope all arashi will always be together..

no matter what happened..

and have a very, very,  very success career forever..

OTANJOUBI OMEDETOU GOZAIMASU =)

double love =)

dussss! arini memang best sgt2..asal??  

nak tahu??td bertembung dgn amirulhadi..

OMG !!! serius???hahaha~ takde la..

sebenarnye ade sorg hamba Allah,

dekat bumi uitm kedah ni sebijik mcm mirul..

cume kurang dr segi ketinggian je -___-` ..

hahaha~ but, still a cute guy.. hahahaha~

dan sangat2memalukan bile bertembung,

ketika nadia dgn mimi ade sekali..

mmg kaw2 la aku kene kan..

dorg boleh jerit kat die yg aku minat die..

dah le die pusing 360 darjah kn. sabor je laaa..

huh, tp aku yakin die tak cam..

mmg bahaye bile kawan dgn dorg2 yg terlebih berani ni..

tapi,diorgla antara kwn yg terbaik kat bumi kedah ni..

marah tetap marah, tp tetap sayang jugakkkkk..

dan the best part is bile pi dinner kat dining masria..

sambil2 tue melayan buletin utama..

takcukup nampak amirulhadi fake pg td a.k.a his twin..

nampak pulak the real mirul dekat dlm news..

oh my prada, you are so macho, mirul !!! (>_<)

hahahaha~ setelah di tambah, tolak, darab, bahagi..

double love for AMIRULHADI..

hahahahaha~

we are BeStfRieNdS =)

assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh..

tak jawab dosa, jawab sayang.. (betul ke? OMG!OMG)..

hahaha.. ok lah, stop it huda. kaw ni kuat merepek arh..

ape sebenarnye nie??? cer citer.. cer citer..

oklah, this entry begins with this.....

nadia, mimi, nisah, huda (saye), nina, aina..

sayang sangat-sangat =)

specially for my BELOVED friends..

thanks for always believing me when i have ceasing in believing myself..

thanks for always being by my side to wipe all my tears..

thanks for always being by my side to make me smile and laugh ..

thanks for always sharing all my happiness and sadness..

thanks for always giving me the best memories in my life..

thanks for always making me as the best person as i could be..

nisah, mimi, aina =)

me, nina, mimi =)

for every single things happened in my life..

that makes me become stronger than before..

i believe all.of you are the reasons behind my strength..

thanks for everything.. you are my backbone..

I LOVE YOU ALL !!!

p/s : sory, mrs. matsumoto agak bz lately so jarang update..

                                                                                                 

amirulhadi zainal in my dream :)))

moshi, mosh!!! hello, minna-san..

i have a VERY,VERY,VERY good dream last night..

you know what??? 

amirulhadi zainal appeared inmy dream last night..

KYAAAAAA ~ =DDDD 

huhuhuhu~ suke giler-giler..

rase nak buat announcement kat seluruh dunia la..

suke sangat-sangat-sangat-sangat- SANGAT !!!!..

rasa macam tak nak bangun tidur la..

(yg baju merah tu my sweetheart ok?

jgn salah sangka lak)

waaa~ macho kan??..

tapi macho lagi die dalam mimpi saye..

sayang giler saye tak ingat sangat mimpi tue..

yang pasti mirul sangat hensem dlm mimpi saye..

sambil pakai baju ala-ala kurta gitu..

kyaaaaa~ i really don`t want to wake up this morning !

amirul yol, i like you lah !!! :))))

p/s : mizzbutterfly, kalu bace jgn marah ye.. hehe~

oh, my junnie bunny.. tercurang kejap.. hehe~

but, you are still my ichiban, junnie !

~ mrs. matsumoto turns to mrs. kancong sebentar >_<  ~

al-fatihah buat arwah atuk..

assalamualaikum.. lame kan tak update???..
cuti ni betul2 sibuk.. mule2 jage atuk sakit..
not so long after that, my atuk meninggal..
sedih sangat2.. tapi, ajal maut ketentuan allah..
allah lebih sayangkan atuk..
sebab tu allah amik atuk dulu..


ape2 pun, saya puas sebab dapat jage atuk sampai akhir hayat..
saye puas sebab saya dapat tengok atuk smpai hembusan nafas terkhir..
saye syukur sebab sehingga keakhir hayatnya dia still ingat Allah..
walaupun sakit dan kadang2 lupa, tapi dia still nak solat..
dalam keadaan sakit, mulut atuk tak henti2 sebut kalimah Allah dan bacaan dalam solat..
terima kasih Ya Allah atas kurniaanMu untuknya..
dan yang paling penting saye syukur sebab saye dapat terima pemergian atuk..
berdosa kita meraung dan meratap pemergian orang yang telah meninggal dunia..
seolah-olah kita tidak redha dengan ketentuan Allah..
memangla sedih, tapi setiap yang hidup akan mati jugak..
hanya Allah zat yang kekal dan tidak ada yang setara denganNya..


kalau nak diikutkan, kadang2 saya rasa atuk still macam ada lg..
tapi, saya selalu kuatkan dalam hati, atuk dah takde.. Allah dah amik atuk..
Allah pinjamkan dekat kita supaya kita boleh ada memori yang indah dgn die..
atuk milik Allah.. we can`t go against qada` dan qadar yang dah ditentukan..
saya redha dengan pemergian atuk meskipun kehilangan atuk sangat dirasai..


mane mungkin saya dapat hapuskan memori dengan atuk..
it`s too precious.. atuk yang jaga saya dari kecik..
emak saye kahwin awal, umur 19 dah kawin.. pastu emak sambung belajar dekat maktab..
abah masa itu masih baru nak bina kewangan, jadi kami 3 beradik dgn abah duduk umah atuk..
tiap2 hari atuk dgn opah la yg jaga kami.. emak yg belajar kat terengganu, every weekend balik..
time kami moved to atuk house, atuk baru pencen.. opah keje lagi..
tiap2 pagi atuk buat telur 1/2 masak utk kami.. pastu kami pegi anta opah p keje..
saye tak igt sangat pun time ni.. memori ni kabur sgt utk because i`m too young on that time..
pastu petang2 kami teman atuk amik opah keje kat hospital.. huhu, susah atuk jaga kami..


time saya darjah 6, emak dah lame abis belajar.. kami dah tak duduk dgn atuk dah..
tapi sebab emak dgn abah keje, opah selalu masak lunch utk kami..
atuk la hantar bekal dekat saye time kelas tambahan.. baiknye atuk saye..
tiap2 kali kami nak balik asrama, atuk mesti kasi duit.. thanks atuk..
pastu, atuk selalu tanye dekat emak dgn abah, bile kami cuti..
walaupun baru je lepas cuti dan jumpe atuk.. mase berlalu pantas sgt..
banyak memori dgna tuk.. nak tulis semua mmg panjg gile la kan..
but, it is too precious and iknow nobody can replace him..


tapi, saya syukur sebab atuk pegi senang je.. mmg la sakaratulmaut itu sakit..
sedangkan Rasulullah yang kekasih Allah pun mengadu sakitnya sakaratulmaut,
sedangkan malaikat mencabut nyawanya dengan sangat perlahan..
apatah lagi kita, manusia biasa ini.. but, alhamdulillah..
atuk tak menderita lame.. Allah amik atuk cepat je, takde la kite nampak mcm seksa sgt..
dan alhamdulillah, pengurusan jenazah sangat cepat dan sempurna..
mungkin rezeki atuk.. meninggal dunia hari jumaat.. dikebumikan juga hari jumaat..
atuk meninggal dunia waktu zuhur dan kebumi waktu asar.. syukur Ya Allah..
sesungguhnya Engkau sebaik-baik perancang..


terima kasih Ya Allah kerana sudah meminjamkan atuk buat kami..
kenangan yang indah denag arwah atuk akan kekal di hati, Insyaallah..
orang alim berkata, jika seseorang hamba itu meninggal dunia,.
maka dia sama sekali telah terputus hubungannya dengan dunia..
satu2 nya cara untuk melahirkan kerinduan dan kecintaan buat atuk ialah..
sentiasa mendoakannya dan menyedekahkan bacaan ayat suci al-quran buatnya..
bekalnya di alam barzakh.. Insyaallah, kami takkan lupa melakukannya..


arwah datuk saya meninggal dunia pada tarikh 20/05/2011..
bersamaan 16 Jamadilakhir 1432 H , pada pukul 1.35 petang..
semoga allahyarham pawan chik bin che rose ditempatkan dalam
kalangan orang-orang yang beriman dan beramal soleh.. amin..


AL-FATIHAH buat atuk tersayang ..


saya teringat suatu hadith Rasulullah S.A.W yang pernah saya belajar..
apabila meninggal dunia anak cucu adam, maka terputus lah amalannya kecuali 3 perkara :


1) sedekah jariah
2) ilmu yang bermanfaat
3) anak yang soleh


(riwayat ahmad) ..
mudah-mudahan menjadi panduan buat kita semua :)

dialog istimewaku ..

assalamualaikum..

daijoubu desuka???it has been a while, ne???

i`d not written anything for about 3 days..

huhuhu~ too busy at home..

well, being at home with family is the most wonderful feeling..

although i miss my friend and seeking the day to see you guys again,

but still, i won`t trade this moment with anything else in this world..

owh yes, 3 days at home, having evening talk with my parents is really nice..

along, apis.. it will become more meaningful if you guys are here too.. 

huhu~ i remember a few conversations with them.. really funny..

situation 1 : in front of tv..

me : mak, mamat ni ok tak? (holding matsujun pic)

mak : eh, ni bukan yg berlakon dlm citer cikgu2 tue ke?? (gokusen)

me : aah la.. cute kan??

mak : handsome.. sape die nie?? 

me : matsumoto jun la mak.. aiseh, name menantu sendiri pun lupe..

mak : =,=` ..

huhuhu, sorry mak.. i`m just too much in love with him.. hehe`

situation 2 : in front of tv..

abah : angah, pegi angkat kain.. dah nak ujan..

me : kejap la bah.. mak suruh tgok citer marimar utk mak..

abah : oh, die dah jd kawin dgn sergio ke belom??

me : (a bit shocked) .. eh, belum lagi.. abah tgok jugak ke??..

abah : angah tgok la dulu.. satgi angkat kain..

me : -,-`

hish, since when my abah goes for philippines drama??.. confused..

situation 3 : at food stall..

me : bang, kasi air kosong 2 gelas ye..

abang kedai : air kosong? air masak?

me : aah, air masak..

abang kedai : ok, 2 gelas ye?

me : aah..

abang kedai : air suam?

me : ye, air suam same dgn air kosong, air masak..

10 minutes later..

me : abang, air kosong belum sampai lagi..

abang kedai : oh, air kosong tadi? 2 kan?

me : aah.. 2 gelas..

abang kedai : kejap ye..

about 5 minutes..

mak : mane air ni?? dah tercekik dah mak..

me : mak angah rase die tadah air hujan kot.. tue yg tak sampai2 lg..

abang kedai : nah dik, hujan dah berenti, tu yang lambat..

me : huhu~ trime kasih.. (malu)

mak : lain kali jangan mengate kat belakang orang..

me : hehe~ okey bos..

huhuhu~ i took a glance at him.. huhu~ thanks god, he`s cute..

situation 4 : at dining hall..

me : mak, angah rase angah dah kurus siket la mak..

mak : badan macam anak gajah.. kurus mende??

me : mak ni.. bukan nak bg support.. sabo je laa~

huhuhu~ pity me, ne???..

that`s a few nice conversations i`ve had for about these 3 days..

i believe there`s so much more but i cannot write all of them..hehe~

that makes me think how much i miss to be with them like this..

lately, i have no enough time with them..

i`m still studying and i realize i`m now far from then..

all the best moments seems to be hard to share with..

now is the time for me to collect all the sweetness before i`ve to go again..

to achieve all of my dreams and their wishes.. thanks mak, abah..

the moral of these conversations is..

appreciate every single moment you have with your family..

times passess and you may not have enough time for it again..

allow yourself to have as much memories as you can..

because, you are never promised tomorrow to experience the feeling again..

-mdm matsumoto ^^-